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'To be called to shepherd your own cell group' should be the words etched on the signpost at the crossroad of inez's spiritual journey up until now. And pointing to the other direction will be: 'Run screaming away with arms flailing'
I was talking to jordan; and fifteen floors of conversation later, it dawned on me that there are things I am still unable to sacrifice for ministry.
And yet I'll never really know until it's down to the point where I HAVE to truly pick one or the other. Just like how a cow never knows when she's going to be roast beef till the day she realises she's fat, plump and juicy.
Still that led me to force myself to see God's promise of never allowing me to put myself in a situation beyond what I can bear, and even if I stubbornly did, He'd always provide a way out. To stare at this promise with a sense of clarity, and to really ask myself whether I embrace it. Whether that theory of faith is able to result in a life-changing practice.
Funny how I'm able to talk my thoughts into alignment when it's him I'm talking to. Maybe it's cause I'll never know when the conversation will turn a sharp bend and transform into Mr harsh tan; with him never mincing his words and constantly able to deflect off my neediness.
Or maybe it's cause it's just him. That God had placed specifically for a particular length of time in my life. And whether or not that length is a long or moderately short one, sometimes me saying "thank you" is just really not enough.
