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Monday, July 02, 2007

Just woke up from a terrifying nightmare. It very near killed me when I jerked up so hard from sleep, my head swam..

I dreamt of the day the earth died.
I dreamt I saw the wrath of God upon mankind, but worse of all, I dreamt I felt the full force of His judgement on me. I wasn't saved. It's like what they call it - LEFT BEHIND. Stranded from heaven. I blew it.

I saw the moon turn blood red and start to fall from the sky. It looked like a comet gone wrong as it hurdled down through the atmosphere. I remember holding the hand of someone, no idea who, didn't even bother to find out as I recalled not even thinking rationally cause I was just so scared. The night sky started to spin and swirl as it seem to collapse within itself, as if being suctioned out. I saw stars blow out one at a time, and the tilted-up faces of the people around me turn in a split second from curious amazement to one of frigid horror. I just couldn't wrap my head around the fact that one moment the night sky glittered with masses of stars, and people were just marvelling at the beauty of it, before everything just suddenly shriveled away.

The worse thing was I knew I couldn't die. I couldn't escape by dying. There was no dying. Everything was just simply happening and simply existing as it happened. Time seemed to have ceased, and the air was slowly turning suffocating.. choking.
The feeling I felt at that point was, I believe, raw fear.
And then, I felt the cold slimy grip of something; or someone. Never before have I felt that unbearable terror as it clung onto my very soul. So potent; and it was then that I woke up.

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