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How is it that a single "No", can seem to reach all the way down and squeeze so tight it stings? I was thinking that the person who coined the word Heartache is one very apt person indeed..
And so I sat down and seeked comfort from the Lord. I told Him how much it hurts to be rejected, like I'm not even worth spending time for and it felt cold to not even be told properly why not; and the next thing I know, I heard Him respond, 'Well.. dear, I felt the way you did too. During those times you rejected me and chose not to spend time with me. I felt hurt too. Especially when you didn't tell me properly why not. I knew, of course I knew.. But it'll still be nice all the same to have you tell me.'
Oh my God, for You it must have felt an infinite times more worse when the one you love does that to you. To know that I did that and unknowingly might even do that again just nearly undid me.
But still you loved me. And kept on loving me still... It was like a slap to the face. A humbling one.
That's teaching me something isn't it. Not exactly in the way I'd pictured You to comfort me, but You never were a predictable One anyhow.
